ups and downs.

There's something wrong with me, I'm sure.

One moment I'd be on the top of the world, all pumped up to get things started; the next i'd be so depressed nothing can be done.

I can't be bipolar, can I? Bipolars probably don't think they're bipolars, so I can't be bipolar, right?

2 years can make a difference

Nearly 2 years ago, I blogged about Haruka Miura and said...

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OHMYGOSH HE'S YOUNGER THAN ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *jaw drops jaw drops jaw drops jaw drops jaw drops jaw drops jaw drops jaw drops jaw drops jaw drops *

I knew it!! *okay,maybe I didn't*


I thought he looked young!!! (: (: And he's tall too! 178cm! (: (: (: (: (: Haha,he's only 11 days younger than me!!!! x) ELEVEN DAYS!!

Anyway, the reason I said he can't act is because he keeps staring straight,even when he tries to apologise to the girl, or cries...

I don't know if it's because that's his character in the dorama -- you know, cool and emotionless.. or it's because he just can't act. You can't really feel the emotion by watching him!

Or

I could be wrong. (: But he has a cute face.(the picture in wiki just isn't as great as him in the dorama!! ) I'm gonna buy more dorama tommorow.

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Yes. Basically I was going crazy *as usual* over some celebrity.

I'm watching Samurai High School now, and he.has.improved.so.so.so.so.so.much.

In just 2 years (maybe 3), a person can improve so much.
On the same note, a person's blogging style can change as well, huh.

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my internet-less weekend

My internet is down!! : ( All the Hotlines they promoted and advertised are only working on weekdays!!!!!! Super suck.

It's supposed to be a good thing, 'cause now I'm treating my room like the library (no going online), and the library is like my room. To think that the day before my internet went down, I was actually contemplating abstinence from the internet...and then it really happened! :((((((

I'm not using this well though -- ideally I should hit the books,but...

my life thus far.

This is such a cliche but...

I handed in the essay today, and it felt like the weight of the world was lifted off my shoulders. I'm serious.

Now that exams and the essay is done, it is time to.....

. work on the marketing report assignment that was assigned today (due 2 days before my exams).
. study for x'mas exams.

HAHA.
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I'm so busy I wonder why I have a silly smile plastered on my face most of the time. : D

Or maybe it's that other thing. ( :

that thing that makes you look for someone's face in every window you pass.
会いたい. : (

i don't get it. i'm so frustrated because i'm acting this way over someone.

but for some odd reason, i'm happy too.

i wonder.

no-capital-letters-day.

i am so irresponsible. i forgot to set the alarm. i woke up at 10.34am. biology class starts at 10.30am. i actually unintentionally slept it.

today is going to be a great day. ( : i'm not even being sarcastic. it's a great day because since i slept it, i only have a one-hour-business1220-insert-stab-class in the afternoon and I am done. Also, i had enough sleep (duh, since i slept in).

tomorrow is going to be a packed,running around day because I am definitely going to sit in the other biology class (not my class) just to catch up on what i missed today. i will. rawr.

in the midst of it all...

"According to the dates you have entered, you have 0 days to finish.
You have less than one day to get this done. I hope you're just playing with this thing."
Yes, I am just playing, how did you know? XD Smart computer. haha. Nevertheless, my essay assignment due date IS coming...ARGH. i hate research.





Loh Kwan Seng makes my day. (just to avoid confusion, to my mom: That guy is a celebrity, Kwan Seng just 'cut-and-pasted' my face onto the picture, he is not my boyfriend, although I would be very happy if he is.)

wishful thinking

I have my points........... they're just not supported by research. x)

I wish I could write the essay without research, just right off my head.
Life would be so much easier.

Don't we all wish.

home, home, i wanna go home.

I am listening to Crazy - Simple Plan and remembering Li May.

There are so many things that seem to jump out at me and remind me of someone. It is so easy to be reminded of someone, something, somewhere, some event, some food, some home.

I miss Malaysia. : (
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Sometimes I just want to tell them: "What do you know about missing home? If you're not half the globe away, if you don't need to wait close to 24hours before you reach home (or like last summer, more than that,thanks to the flight delay and my night in HK airport), if your dinner is but a variation of what you will have at home (how different can scalloped potatoes be? or brocolli and cheese? or pasta?! really, how different can your mom cook it?! -- oh gawd so sick of angmo complaining about angmo food) and is not something totally different, you don't know what it's like to miss home.so just shut up."

yes, I am bias and selfish like that.
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Argh. 7 things. Rawr.

exams are finally done.

I don't think I did good for hsci but whatever. : O

I made a list of things-to-do (mainly CATCH-UP on every single subject), 7 things.

Sigh. You would think a month of mid-term exams is nothing, I mean, SPM is around that long too. The thing is during SPM everything comes to a halt. There is no teaching going on. Zero. So there is nothing to catch up on.

What I really hate about this exam period is that I have 2 midterms for Hsci. My exams kick-started with Hsci, and ends with it. So between the first exam and the last exam I obviously had other exams, but I also had Hsci class going on as usual (classes that covered material that will be tested on the 2nd exam, ie. my last exam). And what was I doing between the end of the first exam and the beginning of the last exam? I was studying for the other exams. And as I am going to say in the next paragraph, I can't focus on anything but the exam before me, so I did not reaaaaally pay attention to hsci classes. (._.)

Time management. I can't seem to MOVE ON. If I have a Biology test this Saturday, I'd put everything down and only study Biology...the entire week. Hence, I am behind on readings (because I would only be reading my exam material) in all subjects including Biology (who said the prof. is going to stop teaching just because we have an exam?)

Paranoia. Even if I am prepared, I never feel prepared! When is it enough?

ARGH. you can sense my frustration. I actually typed RAGH instead of ARGH...that speaks volumes about how well my brain is handling this. I have no idea why. I really should be rejoicing the fact that I'm done with exams (for now!)

Anyway, the list is done, gonna get started. I swear today until the end of this week (deadline: Sunday midnight), I am going to get all 7 things done and be at par with the profs. I hate being behind and clueless. Well everything except that darn sociology essay that is due in 13 days (or issit 12 now?) and I still do not have a topic for.